haha [01 Jan 2008|12:40am] hahaha-happy new year sa inyong lahat ng mga walang alam sa blog na to. post comment

One year later [20 Dec 2006|05:50pm] I have: -learned some crazy stuff about computer networking devices -worked like some crazed robot at a technical support center -gone back to law school, evening class -begun profiting from academic research -befriended a retired colonel,a handful of communists, and an NBI intelligence officer, among others.. -spent my birthday in a motel room for lack of anywhere else to get drunk -become involved in a civil case I am: -a law student again -an alcoholic again -single again,but not very available it seems -a bedspacer -a taxpayer -worried about my younger siblings -sometimes hard up on finances -being pampered every now and then -ever so slightly lonely post comment

9:40 Pm [20 Dec 2005|10:01pm] Papa died at this time today, at home.I dont know what else to say. post comment

the little hos [03 Jul 2005|05:07pm] the young uns are getting rather sophisticated these days. i feel like a menopausal dino. 2 comments|post comment

background [27 May 2005|12:33pm] that's from stephen king's dark tower. the young boy with the rose in the vacant lot. post comment

*sigh [12 Apr 2005|11:07pm] i wanna get thin.. i wanna get thin.. i wanna get so thin.. if you throw up every other meal, will that still count as bulimia? kung kahit once a day lang? aaaaargghh.. 2 comments|post comment

hmmm [02 Apr 2005|11:02pm] [ mood | cranky ] maybe its about time i get myself more friends in this thing.. post comment

sighting land [02 Apr 2005|10:41pm] [ mood | excited ] raise the sails as we double our speed. there's land ahead. and its just about time we stop floating around, even for just a little while. will be back in manila april 24. yippee. post comment

cont. [29 Mar 2005|10:29pm] which reminds me, one of the most fulfilling messages i ever sent via text, "i've got better things to do with my time than be your doormat." now that felt good. ah, but it broke my heart later on. post comment

mula ngayon [29 Mar 2005|10:25pm] tama ba naman na "nice" raw ako? sabi ng kapatid ko. sabi ng boyfriend ko. wala lang. ang pretentious ko. amf. aaaaaaaaaarrrrrggggh. doormat, kamo. doormat. doormat. doormat. this is one of those times when charm's words ring true, "you let people get away with too much." aaaaargh. DOORMAT. post comment

inggit na naman [29 Mar 2005|10:18pm] si dianne sa mga nakikitang journals na may kung anu-anong gimik. tumingin-tingin pa kasi ang bata. i'm living in a godforsaken cave. this is cavewoman, hear me meow. post comment

church boo-boos [28 Mar 2005|10:02pm] easter vigil at new jersey, i spent about ten minutes keeping myself from laughing out loud, thereby, ending up giggly as shit in my little pew. had previously been just spacing out as the choir sang their offertory song when i found myself remembering some things.. just a few weeks before that.. padre: body of christ yours truly: thank you. (yikes. nagpahalata.) sa bahay a couple of months back.. yours truly: hail mary, full of grace, uh.. uh.. uhmm my kid sis: (whispering).. the lord is with you.. im going straight down to hell. before i go, though, i've really got to do something about my space-out episodes.. my head and the things going on inside it are going to get me into trouble one of these days. 1 comment|post comment

defensive [10 Mar 2005|09:59pm] [ mood | stressed ] my parents should feel vindicated. looks like im still going to get quite a beating for all the shit i thought i'd gotten away with. post comment

lae [10 Mar 2005|09:45pm] [ mood | crazy ] have officially qualified for interview. while half of me is ofcourse jumping up and down with joy, the other half is banging her head on the nearest concrete wall, "why didnt i get in for enrolment??!". no, its not arrogance. its panic. somebody pls tell me how exactly im supposed to explain to a panel of law professors how and why i was a delinquent student for the past six years..?? pray for me. pray for me. pray for me. my first reaction to the news was devastation, then panic, and only after did joy seep in. kneejerk thought was "no way im showing up for that interview". waiting for news about interview schedule. hope its not too early. if its alphabetical, then my interview will probably be sometime late april or early may. im rather confused about how i feel right now. post comment

livejournal [18 Feb 2005|10:51pm] on the contrary, i feel very much dead. post comment

matagal ko nang hinahanap na lyrics [11 Feb 2005|11:08pm] got it sa friendster. there are some booboos. di ko na in-edit. Two jumps in a week i bet you think thats prtty clever dont you boy flying on your motorcycle watching all the ground beneath you drop you'd kill yourself for reacognision kill yourself to never ever stop you broke another mirror your turing into something you are not dont leave me high, dont leave me dry dont leave me high, dont leave me dry drying up in comversation you will be the one who cannot talk all your insides fall to pieces you just sit there wishing you could still make love there the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out there the ones who'll spit at you, you will be the on screaming out dont leave me high, dont leave me dry dont leave me high, dont leave me dry oh its the best thing that you've ever had the best thing that you've ever,ever had its the best thing that you've ever had the best thing that you've ever had has gone away dont leave me high, dont leave me dry dont leave me high, dont leave me dry dont leave me high dont leave me high, dont leave me dry post comment

laundry girl [05 Feb 2005|10:44pm] [ mood | bitchy ] i've finally landed myself a job: dry cleaners. i dont know what to call myself. basta. i pack the clothes with those large cellophanes. we dont really do the laundry cos we only offer valet service, which means the place is only there for dropping off dirty laundry, other people pick up the clothes and clean them in someplace they call the "factory", then deliver them back to our shop where yours truly prepares them for delivery to their respective owners. oh well. im not so bored now. the korean who owns the place, i dont think he knows what to do with me. i kinda surprised them when i showed up out of nowhere telling them i was sent by the agency. his wife looked me up and down, like, "are you serious?". asked me, " you have experience?" i grinned. "nope." then they hired me. so detest the guy i work with. he's mexican, middle-aged and been working there for about two years now. for the first two days he was huffing and puffing bout being so so so busy and having to teach me things, blah-blah-blah. the korean guy, my boss, he snapped at him then, bout me being new and not knowing the job. and he told me not to mind the mexican, he's just grouchy, i should just pretend like im listening to him even when im not. hmmm. something tells me my boss likes me. what can i say? im lovable. that i am. looking forward to my first paycheck. gonna remit it to my bank account back in the phils. this girl's making sure she doesnt need a "go" signal aka support from parents for her to get back to life in QC. just in case. 4 comments|post comment

interview [11 Jan 2005|11:54am] im going to go over to some photo shop today to see if i can get me some dollars while i'm here. the guy i talked to on the phone yesterday said he didnt have an opening ryt now. but he still invited me to drop by today so we can talk. which leaves me quite confused. does he have a job opening or not? I NEED THOSE DOLLARS. my ma sent me "pocket money" before i left manila. then took it all back when i got here. show money lang raw yun. WHATDAFUCK. thus, im stuck here without cash, without friends, and in a few more weeks without smokes. must get job. post comment

hey kat! [08 Jan 2005|01:43pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | i love you more today than yesterday.. ] naisip ko lang, etong blog or journ na ito narereflect din pala in fairness yung pagkatao ko wherein im just talking to myself. nyahahaha. isa lng friend ko. si kat. hi kat. post comment

panic [04 Jan 2005|12:22pm] [ mood | distressed ] ok. so i told my ma that if i dont start earning soon, i'll have to leave earlier for manila so i could get myself a job before june. assuming that i do get in sa law. the idea there was to slowly ease her to the idea that i intended to pay for my education. that this is MY LIFE now. Im an adult, and Ive got plans for myself and Im going to follow through with them. cool, huh? well, she said "ok. you know whats best for you." and then she also said, "ya, thats y i was telling you u should get a job first, work in some field and go to law when YOUVE SAVED ENOUGH MONEY." my idea sounded neat when it was confined to my head. but now, hearing my idea being voiced, the same idea i was so ready to fight for if they should ever force to still sponsor me through law school.. well, it made it permanent. and it suddenly obliterated the alternative options that i so arrogantly scoffed on.. like still having them pay for law school.. scary. those alternative options may have actually served as psychologival safety nets. and now, its suddenly definite and im left with no choice BUT look for money. otherwise. there's no otherwise. EEEk. Ayan. Ang angas kasi. post comment

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